never let go

2009-11-15T22:39:00.000-08:00

Il m'aime encore, et toi tu m'aime un peu plus fort

Mais il m'aime encore, et moi je t'aime un peu plus fort

Et malgré ça il m'aime encore, et moi je t'aime un peu plus fort

Mais il m'aime encore, et moi je t'aime un peu plus fort

why dont you kill me already?

2009-11-12T20:27:00.000-08:00

i miss you

i wish you would leave

you bring out the worst in me

you make me someone i hate

i'm missing you because of you

bluelips

2009-11-01T23:04:00.000-08:00

im always everyone's second choice. im always everyone's second choice.notthinenough.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.notprettyenough.im always everyone's second choice. im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.notgoodenough.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice. im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.notfunnyenough.im always everyone's second choice.notniceneoughim always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice. im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.nottallenough.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice. im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.notnatrualenough.im always everyone's second choice. im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.notloudenough.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice. im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.notquietenough. im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.im always everyone's second choice.nothing.

you feel like something is about to begin

2009-10-29T23:08:00.001-07:00

i have always supported you.

listened to you

encouraged you

what can you say you've done for me?

ask me. i won't say no. how could i?

2009-10-15T23:02:00.000-07:00

no matter how far you distance yourself from me

i will always love you

nothing will ever be able to change that

your hollow heart will always be full of warmth to me

your moody mind will always be a charming savant

your restless eyes will always be sparkling figments of delight

no matter how hard i try

how much i push you away

or how much i try to extract every drop of your allure

i find myself weak

i find myself back in your arms.

the blues

2009-10-11T22:44:00.000-07:00

is this the new year or just another night?

is this the new fear or just another fright?

is this the new tear or just another desperation?

is this the finger or just another fist?

is this kingdom or just a hit and miss

i miss direction most in all this desperation

is this what they call freedom?

is this what you call pain?

is this what they call discontented fame?

it'll be a day like this one

when the world caves in

im singing this one

like a broken piece of glass

for broken hearts

and broken noses in the back

is this the new year or just another desperation?

you're pushing till you're shoving

you bend until you break

do you stand on the field where your broken fathers lay?

it'll be a day like this one when the world caves in

when the world caves in

is there nothing here worth saving?

is there no one here at all?

is there any net left that could break our fall?

it'll be a day like this one when the sky breaks down

when the hungry and poor and deserted are found

are you discontented?

have you been pushing hard?

have you been throwing down this broken house of cards?

it'll be a day like this one when the world caves in

when the world caves in

is there nothing left now?

nothing left to sing?

are there any left that haven't kissed the enemy?

is this the new year or just another desperation?

does justice ever find you?

do the wicked never lose?

is there any other song left to sing besides these blues

and nothing is okay until the world caves

till the world caves in

-(switchfoot)

romance can only fill so many holes

2009-10-11T22:19:00.000-07:00

you've become a liar

pathetic and pitiful

you've given up on friendships

shameful and disgraceful

for what?

WHAT HAPPENS WHEN WE'RE ALL YOU HAVE?

im sorry but i'm not surprised

2009-10-10T15:06:00.000-07:00

let me have something of my own

i've shared everything with you

every fiber of my being has been shared with you

what have you given me?

what have you let me in on?

the last time i was on top, is a blur

i can't remember when i last called something mine

something i can say i've never let anyone else in on

if i do keep it i'm called a shrew

how can i win?

please just let me keep this, for my own.

i hate goodbyes

2009-10-01T23:02:00.001-07:00

i don't think i'll ever let anyone know how much i secretly care for you

it's stunning really

everyday i surprise myself

everyday i try to let go of you

but i've lost my tight grip on reality

and tightened my grip on fantasy.

10 000

2009-10-01T23:00:00.001-07:00

you're alone because of the actions you chose not to take

THE

2009-09-27T15:50:00.000-07:00

names. wordless callings.

we are known as the homeless, the missing souls.

called by those who are called doctor, lawyers, artists, mothers, friends.

are we not those things?

does being left without a home make you obsolete?

we may not have four walls and a roof above our heads

but we still have our minds, our spirits.

we seek healthy lives, like doctors

fight for our rights, like lawyers

sing, dance, paint, like artists

care for our children, like mothers

share a laugh, like friends

are we something to be ashamed of?

not long ago we were like you, now slipped through the cracks.

we did not want this path of desolation

this path that has no promise of tomorrow

to you we may be "the homeless"

but if you look a little closer you will see

we are the jaded travelers searching for a just hand to pull us out

when you've lost your way

2009-09-25T21:24:00.001-07:00

im excited for tomorrow because i miss the nights we use to have, just talking.

iforgottomeantion,whenisaidilovedyou,thatyou'rea

2009-09-25T15:11:00.000-07:00

HYPOCRITE.

yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away

2009-09-25T15:02:00.000-07:00

everyday my self esteem drops lower and lower

i was slowly gaining it all back

my confidence

my happiness

and then in a split second it faded into nothing

i'm nothing

empty, soul-less

i can only ever hope to be good enough

pretty enough

thin enough

smart enough

kind enough

but i never make the cut

it's like everybody's waiting for me at the finish line, and i'm struggling to make it past the start

dlghjsd

2009-09-25T12:54:00.000-07:00

you always were and you always will be the taller and the prettier one

georgiaboylan

2009-09-01T12:39:00.001-07:00

i have never felt so confident in calling someone my bestfriend and knowing they feel the exact same way

i love you more than words could describe.

you you you

2009-08-11T23:40:00.000-07:00

how much do you trust me?

on a side note:

(i've had writters block for so long

it feels like every ounce of creativity in my body has been drenched out

this needs to end.)

lead me to the door

2009-07-21T01:03:00.000-07:00

it feels so good to not care anymore

in some ways nothing has changed

i'll be the person i've always been for you

i'll be close behind

2009-07-08T00:31:00.001-07:00

you've done so much for me

bringing me back to the person i want to be

no matter what, you have accepted me

how is it possible to learn so much from one person?

i'll never be able to let go of this friendship

thank you.thank you.thank you

i love you

let's leave

2009-07-06T23:57:00.000-07:00

i took a train, i took a plane

"oh who cares, you always end up in the city."

it might just be

2009-07-05T00:17:00.001-07:00

the best night of my life

pathetic

2009-07-04T06:53:00.000-07:00

don't complain anymore,

at least not to me.

you're perfect for each other

and i've let go of trying to squeeze myself in.

i'm happy,

finally.

truly not expected from you

2009-07-03T14:33:00.001-07:00

LIAR

this is the first day of my life

2009-07-01T16:05:00.000-07:00

oh foolish heart of mine

how weak and hopeless you have become

every vessel of your being

has slowly started to numb

you've let yourself slip away

forgetting all you've known

did you not learn anything from last time?

have you still not grown?

how pitiful and naive you are

falling for every sweet song

none of those words were written for you

you must learn to be strong

stop being so judgmental

learn to let the right ones in

give up on your petty dreams

let the healing begin

last one about him, promise

2009-06-28T14:50:00.000-07:00

it's no stretch to say you were not quiet a father

but a donor of seeds to a poor single mother, that would raise us alone

we never saw the money

it went down your throat

through the hole in your belly.

happy fathers day

2009-06-22T21:54:00.001-07:00

somewhere we went wrong

2009-06-13T12:41:00.001-07:00

"blessed are the hearts that can bend, they shall never be broken."

theres a hole in my heart

2009-06-13T11:48:00.000-07:00

i'm not going to try anymore

invisible

2009-06-08T17:16:00.001-07:00

i'm always treated as though i am not as good

as funny

as pretty

as nice

as her.

this could be the end of everything

2009-06-05T18:47:00.000-07:00

how do i always fall so fast?

who's going to catch me now?

when will these foolish games end?

what's going to be the end result?

where will i be when i realize how naive i've truly become?

why do i have to question everything?

keep some hope alive

2009-05-19T21:04:00.000-07:00

i trust you more than anyone

(you seem to be the only one who notices)

what you see the others don't

(no one understands this feeling)

how can i possibly reciprocate what you've given me?

(no way to possibly thank-you)

one night to push and scream

2009-05-18T00:55:00.001-07:00

within seconds you changed,

how is that even possible?

was it something i said?

maybe you didn't change at all

maybe it was who you were the entire time.

find it

2009-05-10T19:17:00.000-07:00

i'm going to do it just to see what he says.

mom

2009-05-10T09:45:00.001-07:00

Mothers day, mothers day

one day for you is not enough

all the things you've done for me

through the good times and the rough

no one could ever replace you

you're the glue that holds me together

you've been my support through everything

my umbrella in rainy weather.

no matter how naive I am

you have guided me through the right trail

letting me go when I had enough strength

and holding me close if i ever did fail

you've held me when I've shed my tears

you've laughed with me in times of bliss

I wouldn't be here without you today

without you I would not exist

no poem could ever describe my thanks

no verse, no rhyme, no words

no one could ever sing my love for you

not even the sweetest birds

now today I am reminded

of everything you've given me

of every moment we've spent together

even if we did not happen to agree

so mom please listen closely

and remember that what I've said is true

you've been my best friend, if nothing else

and for that I'll always love you.

these things take forever

2009-04-30T21:43:00.000-07:00

i'm so strung out

2009-04-28T16:38:00.000-07:00

everything you spoke was a lie

hypocrite

just tell me why

one line

2009-04-02T17:56:00.000-07:00

it's really funny how this happens every time.

am i starting to fade?

damn you for loving me

2009-03-30T19:19:00.001-07:00

unless it's fiction

2009-03-26T22:00:00.001-07:00

What breaks this heart the most is the ghost of some rock and roll fan

exploding from the stands

with her heart opened up.

I wanna tell her that your love isn't lost

say, my heart is still crossed

scream, you're so wonderful

what a dream in the dark.

be be your love

2009-03-25T22:14:00.001-07:00

Darling, say the word and I'm yours.

Put me under your wicked spell.

Dream of us in a field of daises with the sweetest scent.

Let our love be loved, and let our minds run wild with thoughts of candy kisses, and cinnamon hugs.

Release the passion burning in your eyes.

Make every mischievous smile go unnoticed by those who can't understand

those who won't understand.

Darling, say the word and I'm yours.

words could never make up for what you do

2009-03-25T21:58:00.000-07:00

I can see you sitting there, looking so alone

Thinking I'm so much happier out on my own.

You'll be satisfied with anyone, anyone will do.

Then you'll end it a week from now, you'll tell her that you're through.

How could anyone possibly not care?

Knowing you're alone, keeping your heart completely bare.

Maybe one day you'll look up to the stars

Then think of me and how you left my heart with all these scars.

let's dance for awhile

2009-03-08T21:09:00.000-07:00

it's been a long year

since we last spoke

how's your halo?

just between you and i

you and me and the satellites

i never believed you

i only wanted to

before all this

what did i miss?

do you ever get home sick?

i can't get use to it

i'll never get use to it

i'm under that night

i'm under those same stars

we're in a red car

you asleep at my side

going in and out of the headlights

could i have saved you?

would that've betrayed you?

i want to burn this film

you alone with those pills

what you couldn't do i will

i forgive you

for blue, blue skies

i forgive you

so many men would've loved you more

2009-03-08T20:12:00.000-07:00

what became of you?

so desperate and mundane.

a reflection

that's driving me insane

put some heart in it

take the wheel, don't look back

skip out of town

switch to the next track

what an empty heart

no connect to a soul

who would've ever thought

his mind had such control

don't be childish now,

you know there's never a guarantee

don't let him hold you back

cut the strings to set you free

i'm a fool

2009-02-28T15:42:00.000-08:00

i'll say it once, i'll say it twice

take my heart and roll the dice

i'll let you shine, i'll let you grow

you have my heart, that's all i know

i'll be faithful, i'll be a friend

my warmth for you has no end

i'll say it twice, i'll repeat this tune

my love for you shines like the moon

black and gold

2009-02-26T15:39:00.001-08:00

i looked up into the night sky

and see a thousand eyes staring back

and all around these golden beacons

i see nothing but black

i feel a way of something beyond them

i don't see what i can feel

if vision is the only validation

then most of my life isn't real

would you please take me away from this place?

2009-02-25T19:52:00.000-08:00

You never wanted to hurt me

All this pain was by mistake

Every word you ever spoke to me

Was proven to be fake

At night I feel the cold surround me

The hollow heart takes over

I think back to when we wished for love

When we found that lucky clover

How could have things changed so quickly?

It was so like you to disappear

Your heart was taken with you

Your mind was never here

You walked away from our happy medium

Never even looking back

Was all this just a game to you?

Am I your hidden track?

i can't breathe

2009-02-18T21:44:00.000-08:00

show me some sign that you care

you and i will escape to the seaside

2009-02-08T00:14:00.000-08:00

i'm clueless

dazed, and lost

you've stolen my heart

exhausted the cost

i'm losing

my mind, and my soul

clear thoughts fade

i've lost all control

i'm hurt

inside, and out

i need to breathe freely

careless, with no doubt.

here with you

2009-02-05T22:35:00.001-08:00

i know it will never,ever be true.

i hated who i was

2009-02-01T22:42:00.000-08:00

i'm sorry my dear

but things have gone back to how they were

i won't ever do this to you again

everyone can see right through me

2009-01-31T15:54:00.000-08:00

do you still love me?

do you still care?

what must I have done for this to be happening?

an empty whole where there once was a heart

do you still need me?

do you still see me?

I'm crying out for some affection

someone to keep me safe

there's no one to escape this room that I've locked myself in

do you still hear me?

do you still understand?

I'll keep apologizing, keep living in this paranoia

always thinking you'll get up and leave

do you still love me?

do you still care?

you surround me

2009-01-24T10:16:00.000-08:00

i just wanna use your love

2009-01-24T00:16:00.001-08:00

I'm screaming for some company

come here, come here, sit with me

nothing's worse then the bitter taste of, alone

come here, come here, make yourself at home

tell me every secret you've got

come here, come here, untie the knot

are you ready to know every side of me?

come here, come here, set me free.

in spite of all you said

2009-01-20T18:42:00.000-08:00

i don't deserve this. i've been there for you. be here for me.

they will see us waving

2009-01-18T15:11:00.000-08:00

i've got this feeling that there's something i missed

2009-01-18T13:18:00.000-08:00

i need to be more free

more alone, and secure

i need to be someone who loves themselves

i need to stop being so unsure

i need to be more independent

breaking free from others chains

i need to be wiser

i need to scrounge up the remains

i need to take care of myself

pay attention to what i desire

i need to let go of trying to make everyone else happy

it's made me into a liar.

soon we'll be found

2009-01-12T22:49:00.000-08:00

i would give up everything i have

just to keep you smiling

make all your worries go away

if they ever start piling

if anyone ever did you wrong

i'd hold you through the tears

sitting till the sunrises

or until the moon appears

i would sail across the ocean

travel through the deepest blue

just to make you happy

and to show how much i care for you

what's wrong with you?

2009-01-12T19:06:00.001-08:00

i've got you crying

2009-01-12T17:52:00.000-08:00

what ever happened to making a commitment to your words?

Standing by what you believe is true.

It's all faded into a blur

nonsense, the past.

what's going to happen when I'm left alone?

with no one to hold close

I'll be forgotten

erased, the past.

when are you going to realize that sometimes, you're wrong?

you don't always stay true

you're a hypocrite

present, the past.

say whatever you want

2009-01-10T13:46:00.000-08:00

I looked her in the eye

and told her to stand up tall

face all your fears

pull yourself away from the wall

vow never to fall apart

be strong, mature, and brave

listen to your heart

don't be anybody's slave

be happy when you need to be

and angry if you've been done wrong

remember to be bold

and always stay strong

never bite the hand that feeds you

let your spirits be as light as a feather

don't let anything break you down

pull yourself together.

apathy releases me

2009-01-08T22:43:00.000-08:00

i have a new years resolution that i'm not going to tell anyone, not a soul.

everybody but me

2009-01-05T23:06:00.000-08:00

give me something i can keep.

i want to feel the comfort of security,

to have something to rely on.

let me have it forever, and ever

don't let anyone take it away from me

never let it be gone

show me that there's hope out there

give me a chance to break free

i don't want another clone

i need something new and original

to keep away from all the rest

i need something to call my own

no one's listening

2009-01-04T19:31:00.000-08:00

if i could do it all again

2009-01-03T12:57:00.000-08:00

i really want to look you in the eye, and tell you how truly pathetic you are.

the final word, and the final sentence

2008-12-31T01:54:00.000-08:00

I know myself too well

this isn't the end

I'll be running back to you

going back around the bend

all my doubts will fade

with all your charming words

then you'll take away my heart

shatter it into thirds

this winter will be colder

and worse than all the rest

I will be making one last plea

and one final request

push me away from your heart

send me over with one shove

maybe then I'll learn my lesson

I might just fall out of love.

you could've done more

2008-12-28T22:40:00.000-08:00

some say you don't know what you've got until it's gone. wether it's missing, stolen, broken, or simply vanished forever, never to be seen again. i never really understood the meaning of this saying. how can you not know what is right in front of you? how could someone be so oblivious to their surroundings or what they love? but throughout my life i've taken things for granted. friends, family, comfort. things people would kill for. i've lost chances i should have taken, and lost close ties with people i've cared for. would i have been so naive as to take granted of something if i knew that it would soon be gone? never. living life with the thought of 'what if' is exhausting. taking chances is what sets people free. making life what you've always wanted it to be instead of sitting in the sidelines, waiting for 'someday' to finally arrive. what will you do if that day finally arises but you're stuck. stuck where you've been your entire life because that's all you've known. does a moment like that come about ever again? some say you don't know what you've got until it's gone. i believe in this. opportunities, friendships, family seem so effortless, something we are given. a right. but it's a privilege. and it's something that can be taken in a blink of an eye. in that half a second it's time for you to decide; will you sit back and let life hand you what it may? or will you fight to make your life worth living?

all these things that i've done

2008-12-28T21:09:00.000-08:00

fearful. regretful. safe. liar. manipulative. inattentive. careless. ignorant.

I hate what I've become

bittersweet

2008-12-27T01:36:00.000-08:00

I'm walking up to you so slowly

It's about time, it's about time to fly away

but wait,

i swear it's different 'cause I'm lonely

fold your wings,you'll need them more one day.

truly,honestly.

2008-12-27T00:59:00.000-08:00

if there's one thing i believe in; it's you. you're gonna be what saves us all. i wish you could realize it on your own.

it's right for me

2008-12-27T00:42:00.000-08:00

Tell me all your fears

List them one by one

Explain to me all your weaknesses

Show me all the bad that you've done

Let me help you fix things

Allow me to push through

Show me what you're proud of

I wanna see every side of you

Don't fool me, 'cause i've been there

I've been played around with before

Love me because you want to

Don't act like it's a chore

Hold me a little tighter

Kiss me a little longer

Let me know that when you're around

I'll be a little stronger.

A,B,C+,C,C-,F

2008-12-26T00:09:00.000-08:00

Why can't I ever be evaluated on the person I've become?

i gave you my heart

2008-12-23T21:54:00.000-08:00

I didn't ask for a new bike

I didn't ask for a book

I asked for your return

I asked for one last look

I didn't ask for a doll

I didn't ask for a dove

I asked for you to hold me

I asked for your love.

my heart beating out of my chest

2008-12-19T23:08:00.000-08:00

brighter than the sunshine

louder than the rain

this is what I've always needed

though it's driving me insane

sweeter than candy

colder than snow

how can I grasp this moment,

and never let it go?

warmer than a fire

softer than wool

a feeling of completeness

knowledge that you're full

faster than a race car

longer than a mile

all I want to see these days

is your beautiful smile.

happybirthday

2008-12-19T19:29:00.001-08:00

it can't be done

2008-12-17T19:26:00.000-08:00

I wish I could freeze everyone around us, for just a minute, and see what it would be like if it was just me and you.

it doesn't stop here

2008-12-16T22:14:00.000-08:00

Hello? Hello?

Is there anyone out there to hear my shattered screams?

Come save me from this disaster I've created.

Tell me who's to blame?

Rescue me! Rescue me!

I've fallen apart

Nothing left but a few odds and ends of a puzzle

How can I put it back together?

Where do I even begin?

I'm drowning! I'm drowning!

With my last few words about to come out

But what do I say?

How do I leave things?

Will I even be remembered?

Goodbye. Goodbye.

Thanks for watching me struggle

Sitting in the sidelines

Anticipating my next mistake

How do I become as cold as you?

and if it's real, well i don't want to know

2008-12-15T23:09:00.000-08:00

sometimes I wonder if you keep things from me to keep me safe, or to make yourself feel better. it hurts either way. the sad part is, i think you know that.

take a look at yourself

2008-12-15T22:51:00.000-08:00

I know that this is hard for you

I see it in your eyes

this really must be killing you

taking off your final disguise

all the truth has finally been reveled

every secret exposed

your thoughts are all wide open

an open door that was once closed

you've take off your hidden layer

reaching down to your inner most core

but you can't fool me for a minute

you're a liar, and nothing more.

the end's not near, it's here.

2008-12-14T22:13:00.001-08:00

Let's open our eyes to the reality of the world that's surrounding us today. Let's take a look at others problems and realize that it's not OK. Because many of us have been blind all these years, not knowing what has occurred. Not everyone is like me and you, some are living in worlds of third. Some have lost their homes and belongings, left to live on the street. No clothing to warm them, no socks upon their feet. Some have had to leave their homes in a hurry, with no time to look back. They lost all the things that were once theirs because of an attack. But the most painful thing they've lost by far, is someone that they love. A mother, a daughter, a brother that's now looking down from above. These people could have been good people, or they could have been bad. But in the end it doesn't really matter, they might have been a sister, a friend, or a dad. In the end we are all loved by someone, no matter who we are. our love for each other is marked forever, lasting like a scar. But once that person is taken away it's something you can't ignore. All the hope in the world is gone because of a ludicrous war. Why must we fight with the ones we differ from, just to prove we are right? Nothing can be settled with words anymore, it all gets down to the fight. What's the point of bombs and bullets when it only leads to pain. Nothing good can possibly come out from these bloodshed's it's only for the insane. why can't we see that what makes us unique is a good thing, dark skinned or pale. Let's drop our weapons of hate and for once let love prevail.

then there's you

2008-12-14T21:56:00.000-08:00

our love is something you've got to hold on to

or else the wind will blow it away

you've got to be ready to take risks

and to fall down and break

our love is something you've got to cherish

or someone will rob you

guard your heart

and keep your eyes open

our love is something that'll last forever

it's something you can count on

believe in it with all your heart

never doubt something this strong

your lies were something I tried to let go of

thinking the wind would come and sweep them away

I wasn't ready to be dropped, and broken

your words were what made me fall for you

they stole my heart

and placed it somewhere that mistreated it

i was blind

your love was temporary

a way to waste my time

to prove that i was naive

never doubt your heart when it's screaming "this feeling that's too strong shouldn't be."

2008-12-10T22:46:00.000-08:00

let's fall apart together.

chasing pavements

2008-12-10T21:26:00.000-08:00

don't get your hopes up honey, it'll never be true

his heart is just too hollow now

and soon yours will be too

stop putting yourself through all of this

it's unnecessary despair

he won't feel any pain at all

and tell me how that's fair?

but you have to understand that this is the way he works

nothing will ever phase him

he's in it for the perks

You can keep trying to fix him, but I assure you that you won't

this is how it is now

seasons change, people don't.

surprise, surprise

2008-12-09T23:50:00.000-08:00

"Sometimes I wonder if anythings absolute anymore. Is there still right and wrong? Good and bad? Truth and lies? Or is everything negotiable, left to interpretation, grey. Sometimes we're forced to bend the truth, transform it, 'cause we're faced with things that are not of our own making. And sometimes things simply catch up to us."

(onetreehill)

tell me how to stay strong

2008-12-09T23:23:00.000-08:00

I can't keep you in the dark forever

I need for you to know

I've got to tell you this secret

I've got to tell you about my newest low.

Come a little closer,

Let me tell you the unknown

The only thing worse about being here

Is being here alone.

how much longer?

2008-12-09T22:56:00.000-08:00

I can't move unless you take my hand and guide me

ask me how i am

2008-12-09T20:28:00.001-08:00

For once I'd like for you to be the one standing out in the cold.

Freezing, thinking to yourself "this is getting old"

I want you to question your own well being

Maybe wonder what it is you're seeing.

I want you to doubt everything you once knew

Consider that maybe love isn't true

I'd like it if I could maybe break your heart

Take it from you, and watch you fall apart.

nothing seems to fit

2008-12-09T16:36:00.000-08:00

Whenever I'm alone with you

You make me feel like I am home again

Whenever I'm alone with you

You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you

You make me feel like I am young again

Whenever I'm alone with you

You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away I will always love you

However long I stay I will always love you

Whatever words I say I will always love you

I will always love you

be the one

2008-12-08T21:18:00.000-08:00

i need somebody to hold me close and tell me what i mean to them. i just reassurance, i just need love.

my only fear

2008-12-04T20:38:00.001-08:00

I find myself constantly wondering if I have made an impact. Wondering how different some peoples lives would be if I never existed; for better or for worse. I just want to have made one singular person better. Make one person happier then they would have been otherwise. I just want to make a difference.

you know i can take it

2008-12-03T22:28:00.001-08:00

don't test my patience

i know where this is headed

you can't fool me this time

i've got you figured out

don't accept any kindness from me

that all vanished once you tore me down

hitting me in all my weak points

don't come running back with some pathetic apology

some pitiful explanation for everything you did

i know you're not sorry

i know you'll never change

a sunken lie

2008-12-03T00:32:00.000-08:00

What is a secret? Is it something we keep from others? Or something you tell to those you trust? Does it have to be something harmful or terrifying? Can it be joyous and heartwarming? We keep secrets so people are kept safe, or to spare someone's feelings. But what happens when that secret is let out? Exposed to those you wanted to see it least. How do you explain yourself, and how do you react? Everybody has a secret. What's yours?

stay away

2008-12-03T00:22:00.001-08:00

If you're the only one who knows why does it feel like I just told the entire world? A momentary lapse when all those words just spilt out onto the floor. What was I thinking? Of course you'd judge me. After all, it's what you're best at. Pushing me aside once you heard what you needed. Did my words boost your ego high enough? Did my pain bring smiles to the faces of all your friends? Go on and celebrate your defeat. If you're the only one who knows why does it feel like I haven't told anyone?

I wanna move but I can't escape from you

2008-12-03T00:11:00.000-08:00

You look so strong and brave.

Nothing scares you. Nothing could ever tear you down.

You look so happy and in love.

Like you just experienced your first kiss. Like a kid on christmas day.

You look so free and careless.

No one could ever take you down from your high. No one could ever lock you up.

You look at me and see nothing.

Once you left you took my strength, confidence, joy, love, freedom, and carelessness.

Give back what I took so long to earn, what's mine. You don't deserve these things,not one bit.

with the news that, it's over

2008-12-02T22:52:00.000-08:00

He whispered " I love you darling, you're my one and only. No one could ever take your place. You're charming, beautiful, and you walk with such grace. Your laughter brightens up a room, and your tears make it rain. When you're gone all i think about is you, this love is making me insane. Being away from you is a challenge. How can a kiss be so sweet? The warmth of your heart is endless, hotter then summers heat." She looked at him, speechless, what could she possibly say? He looked at her so intently, as if it were his last day. He took her into his arms and told her "Don't worry, no need to feel broken. Everything you need to say is better left unspoken." Then she felt the words coming, what was next? She had no clue. Then she heard the words she had just spoken;

"I don't think I love you.."

show me how you do that trick

2008-12-01T23:29:00.000-08:00

look me in the eye and tell me you're sorry

say it without a break

tell me how badly you messed up

explain how this was a mistake

tell me what I want to hear

I'm tired of the hard cold truth

take me back to yesterday

let's go back to our youth

tell me how much you need me

feed me these charged lies

'cause baby the last thing I need to hear

is your hollow goodbyes

you won't get better 'till you're worse

2008-12-01T17:22:00.000-08:00

I wished upon a star last night

dreaming of your return

I needed for you to come back

and wash away my concern

I made sure I spoke clearly

so the star understood my desire

I made sure I was staying true

and that my heart wasn't being a liar

I looked up at the star, in hope

and checking if it was still visible through the rain

turns it wasn't a star at all

it was just another vexatious plane

slow down

2008-11-25T23:59:00.000-08:00

"Do you ever wonder if we make the moments in our lives or if the moments in our lives make us? If you could go back and change one thing about your life, would you? And if you did, would that change make your life better? Or would that change ultimately break your heart? Or break the heart of another? Or would you choose an entirely different path? Or would you change just one thing, just one moment? One moment, that you've always wanted back."

(one tree hill)

something to count on

2008-11-25T23:38:00.000-08:00

in order to find out the what it is to be true, we must find out why people lie. a lie can be spoken for protection, or for sheer desire to hurt someone. someone close, or someone you hardly know at all. that lie can reach inside and twist you till every last bit of you is wrapped in a coat of false information. or it can gently float past you, acting as a form of breathing device allowing you to be happier then you ever imagined. but we have to understand that lies don't get us anywhere. if anything they dig us deeper into a hole of confusion, and desperation. they take us to places that shouldn't have been visited and keep us lost there 'till we realize that we should have believed in the truth. you see telling the truth isn't easy. nothing that pure ever is. but we have to believe it. believe in it with every bone in your body, because no matter what the truth is; bitter or sweet. it is fact, and it will be there forever, haunting you, making sure you know it's always there.

2008-11-25T07:53:00.000-08:00

thank you, thank you, thank you.

say you will

2008-11-24T22:54:00.000-08:00

Don't ever question the impact that you've had on me. I've kept every word you've said to me safe, and close to my heart, grasping it as if they're the only words that matter.

Don't ever second guess the importance you have in my life. You mean so much to me and I could never stand for you to ever be doubting that.

Don't ever, not even for one minute, consider that you've been replaced. Nothing, and no one could ever come in and replace what we have or what we've shared.

In this very moment I cannot think of someone I'd rather have in my life to influence me like you do. don't compare yourself to anyone else because;